Uneternal Sleep
Hindering my thoughts are these constant sleepless nights
With the chances of closing my eyes diminishing
I despise the moon and the blinding sunlight
While over and over I pray for the next day to be promising

It's been so long since I can remember the last time I dreamed
Waking up with a smile on my face
All my memories has slipped away it seems
Losing everything that makes up who I am from this disgrace

My heart is the only thing that sleeps
Keeping my body on delay
My eyes are the only ones who weep
Showing my souls dismay

This insomnia is my marvellous madness
Which brings me to my knees
It's my sweet sadness
That never gives me release

God Would Only Know
It's just like before
My body becoming one of his punching bags again
How I got the strength to leave is beyond me
God Would Only Know

I picked up that needle for the very last time
Making a change for once in my life
A difference in me shows
God Would Only Know

I look in the mirror to see a face and body that was forgotten
A lost memory till I opened my eyes
Now there is a reflection I can recognize
God Would Only Know

I used to wash away these sorrows
Till the bottom of the bottle was empty
What I lost..I found again
God Would Only Know

Time stood still as the trigger was clicked into place
I drowned myself in tears till I lost my will
But I made the choice to save myself
God Would Only Know

Unknown
These lies make me colder...
Leaving me stiff, frozen solid
This life is over-rated, watching the people walk by, miles grow

Nothing will take away my dreams of you
Tonight, I shall close my eyes forever and it will all come true
It feels so good to be in you
I remember everything that I am from just a smile on your face
I made a million mistakes, a storm brews in my head when your not here

Your the only reason why I try anymore
I wanna be your lover and friend
With just one touch of your lips..just one kiss,
everything will begin

Cold
My blood flows with this anger
soon to make me fall apart
The hole goes on and on
Your voice freezes my mind, needing to restart

Stepping down to be less like you
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Each night you tell me I was a mistake
What do you expect from me?

Every step I take is a failure
I know I may end up falling
Put on the pressure of walking in your shoes
I hear the words "Game Over" calling

Inside I'm lost and alone
The look in my eyes is blank, to the point of being faithless
Underneath this disguise is my despair
Cold on the surface, so faceless

When is it time to be me?
This clocks run out of minutes to waste
I will become nothing but a thorn in the skin of the world
My dreams you can never erase

My Remission
There's so many things I wanna tell you
There's so many things I wanna say
But right now I don't know how to speak the words
Only that these thoughts are in disarray

I need to figure out what my heart is trying to tell me
To listen for the whispers of truth
Please don't think I'm pushing you away
This wound needs to heal, a cure for my infirmity

You have no idea what it's like to lose yourself
Being faced with the mishape and chaos of your mind
These sad hours seem long as the heavy darkness begins to fall
Feeling like it goes on forever, like there's no such thing as time

The love you bare will be my morning
The strength you offer will be my night
The hope you cry will be my reason
My reason to keep going...

Fallen

I didn't want to wake up while I was sleeping
Drifting to a place where I can feel brand new
I found a peace inmy dreams, in someone's arms
I want to close my eyes forever, and escape this madness to be with you

Your always my distraction, letting me be empty and weightless
So you can lift me in your arms and take me away
Help me esacpe this cold, darkness that I feel
Your the only one who can make everything okay

I sense a reason to feel not good enough
Pull me from my grave and fly me to eternity
I'm tired of being in the middle of this twisted storm of lies
It's making me weak, bringing me to my knees

I'm tired of waiting for a break, a second chance
They say life's all about change, and nothing ever stays the same
Everyday it becomes harder
To let this sadness seep from my veins

Wherever I turn it builds
It's easier to give up, and let it all go to waste
But in your arms I find comfort
Giving a silent sigh, falling captive to your embrace

Using excuses to make up for what I lack
Yet all I can do is cry
Please come hold me, and ease the sorrow
I know I can smile..I know I can try...

Bearing Forever
I tried to let life pass me by
Living for the moment with each dying day
Hoping this sense of desolation would disappear
To the memories saved as reflections in my mind

I thought in time my heart would cry away the pain
Waiting for that peace at the end of heartache
But then I realized I only surpressed the reality
Of what I was really bottling up inside

Deep down my soul kept searching
Trying to find something to repair these scars
Yet it became so hard to even know where to start
When your without knowing how to heal them

I can still hear those whispered words
And the soft touch I long to feel
Everything turning to dust in the wind
Slipping through the fingers of eternity

I look to the everlasting sun to seek some warmth
Or try to hear a love song never heard
Believing I can coexist with such delusions
Only to be confronted by the truth

These dreams will forever be my reminder
Of everything that will come to be
Eventually I may become balanced once again
Until that time, forever may come and go

When Your Dead And Gone
When your dead and gone will you remember all those years you've complained about your problems?
I still can't understand why you've never tried to solve them
It's not right that I had to live my life without you by my side
And now you've become nothing but a long lost memory of mine

When your dead and gone will you be sorry for all the pain and sadness you caused?
To admit that somewhere in your heart there was a flaw
I'm sorry I can't be perfect enough to make you happy
But did you ever stop and think about me?

When your dead and gone will you have your first and troubled sleep?
Being surrounded by the loneliness of your cold and corrupted keep
I've always wondered how you slept undisturbed at night
So peacefully as if what your doing is right

You have no idea how deep these scars go, slowly breaking me apart
How all the love I used to feel is gone forever from my heart
I'm tired of hearing how bad you have it
Hoping for your pathetic excuses to slip away
If this stupid poem could fix this home, I'd read it everyday

You
In my heart and in my soul I know
That this desire for you is true
All my life I’ve never known such love
And how anyone can make me feel the way you do

Everyday I think about you
Blessing my dreams every night
Whenever I need you, if I’m lost or alone
I can count you’ll be in my arms to hold me tight

More and more I was wasting away
Becoming restless from all the times I’ve cried
No matter what I’d do I’d still feel the same
Emotions I began to hide

But when the walls started closing in
Till the pressure was too much to take
A hand reached out and saved me
Kept my world from falling when I was about to break

When I look at you
There’s no such thing as sorrow
You steal my pain away
So I can manage another tomorrow

You’re my only reason to exist
You show me the impossible
You’re my salvation from life’s deformities
You believed in me when no one else did

Things To Come
All my thoughts run through my head
Filled with pain and sorrow
I hide all behind a mask
and manage until tomorrow

I try to find a hand
and guide me on my way
but all the people I’ve ever known
have faded all to grey

I fall down on my knees
peering into the bleak and dismal dawn
asking myself a silent question
will I be missed when I am gone?